Last year I battled several months of quite severe depression and anxiety. I didn't tell anyone when I was in the grips of it, I just suffered in silence.
I have had anxiety and depression before, but not like this. The anxiety was the worst. It was absolutely horrendous. 24/7 I had that horrible sinking feeling. There was no escape.
It's back. Not to the extent that it was here last year, but it's here. It kind of snuck up on me. A flutter of the chest here, a sinking feeling there.
This morning I put it all together.
The early stages of depression I can handle. Exercise, eat well, read positive books, surround myself with positive people. Done this many times.
But anxiety is new. I didn't even know I had it last year until I had already been living with it for months.
I don't know how to deal with it.
So what does all this have to do with a diet and exercise blog?
A hell of a lot actually....
My struggles with the food are affected by my moods. And conversely my mood is very much affected by the foods I eat.
Plus I just needed somewhere safe to get this all out.
I will not let this take over my like as it did last year. I will kick it. I may just cry a bit here in need...