A New Me

In around about a months time I am joining thousands of other people and shaving my head for the Leukaemia Foundation.

I have spent a good part of the last 2 months freaking out about losing my hair.

I like my hair.

A lot…

And I am going to cry when it goes.

But a part of me is excited about this – and this is not something I would admit to those in my everyday life.

In the last 2 years (well, 18 months really as things have been better for a couple of months) I went through some of the most difficult situations in my life. A LOT of things went down that challenged who I am as a person and deeply affected my relationship with my partner (SVP – Shrinking Vego’s Partner). 

We have pulled through this and SVP & I are stronger than ever. It could have killed us, but it didn’t.

It did leave us bruised and battered though…

The reason I am excited about losing my hair is I see it as a chance to emerge from the shell I have been living in.  Taking off my hair is like shedding the outer layers.

SVP & I were talking about it on the weekend. He believes that once my hair is gone, the weight loss thing will fall into place.  As the hair grows back, and the kilos come off, the true Shrinking Vego will emerge.

This is exactly what has been mulling through my head over the past few days – he just verbalised it better than I could.

A week after losing my hair I am getting a new tattoo. A dragonfly.

Dragonfly Symbolism - Defeat of Self Created Illusions

The dragonfly exhibits iridescence both on its wings as well as on its body. Iridescence is the property of an object to show itself in different colors depending on the angle and polarization of light falling on it. 

This property is seen and believed as the end of one’s self created illusions and a clear vision into the realities of life. The magical property of iridescence is also associated with the discovery of one’s own abilities by unmasking the real self and removing the doubts one casts on his/her own sense of identity. This again indirectly means self discovery and removal of inhibitions.

A new Shrinking Vego will be emerging. The real Shrinking Vego. No longer hiding. No longer afraid. Ready to be who I am meant to be.