Thursday, February 17, 2011

Rationalising Poor Decisions

I have spent this morning perusing blogs and Twitter. Looking for that 'something' that will click with me.

I have read several "woe is me" blogs this morning.

You know the ones. I have had a shit week so I rewarded myself with chocolate. All my friends hate me so I ate a tub of ice cream. It's okay though, I will be fine when they love me again. That sort of crap.

And in my head I was sort of agreeing with them. I do that myself. But at the same time I was also thinking "that's not good, you shouldn't do that". 
(I am a complex person, I can agree and disagree with the same thing simultaneously...) 

Anyway, then I read two things that made me stop and think...

The first one was on a forum. The title was something about being proud of herself, then she went on to say her bf of x years had broken up with her THAT morning and she hadn't succumbed to the chocolate monster, she asked her friend to go for a walk on the beach with her instead of comforting her with crap.

The same day she broke up, she was proud of herself for this very strong decision.

The second thing was a Tweet - not 3 minutes later. Now I still don't really get Twitter, so I am not sure who to attribute this to as I am sure it had been retweeted a few times, so apologies if I am stealing your thoughts. But here it is:

"I stopped thinking food was good or bad. Stopped making food about emotions. Food is fuel. Doesn't have bad/good morals"

Now THAT struck a chord... There were other tweets in the tweet line talking about journaling the emotions and thoughts when you eat rather than journaling the food. Which I thought was an interesting concept. 

I think of food in terms of flavour and how it will make me feel emotionally. 

I never think of it in terms of what it is doing for my body.

And let's face it, the only reason we need food is for what it does for our body. 

Every time I have dieted I have focussed on how much food I can fit into my allowance of whatever it is I am counting at the time. I have never stopped to think:-

I am tired, I need iron or protein. 
I am about to exercise, I need some carbs and some protein.
(See I know this stuff, I just don't put it into practice).

Time for a complete head-adjustment. Food purely for what my body needs. 

It will take a lot of work to change nearly 40 years of thinking a certain way. 

But I think I am on to something. I have changed my thinking on other things in the past, time to change my thinking on this.

My Tweets are probably going to be solely about this for a while, but that's okay. I don't think anyone reads them anyway and it gives me a safe place I can jot these thoughts down.

But I would love to know what you guys think....

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I can't read tweets at work! But I agree......most of my eating is emotional> I can kind of get away with at the moment because of all the training but afterwards I need to deal with whats driving it.
xo stay strong