There has been quite a bit on TV here lately about sugar. More specifically refined sugar and the amounts we consume, what foods it is hidden in etc.
So it got me thinking.
I know I eat too much food. I feel as though I am hungry ALL the time. But am I actually craving sugar?
SVP & I have talked about a 30 day blitz where we reduced the amount of refined sugar in our diets to under 8% of the total calorie consumption.
This sounded good until I started looking up my favourite foods....
Vegie pizza on thin crust - 1.9% sugar - this is okay
Hot chips - 1.1% sugar - this is okay
Pad Thai - 3.9% sugar - this is okay
and it goes on...
So clearly this is not going to be a good thing for me, since I tend to reach for the "easy".
But I still think there is something in this. Numerous studies have pointed to excess sugar consumption contributing not only to obesity and obesity related illnesses, but also to skin conditions (I have excema), to general feelings of lethargy, to energy levels etc.
So what I need to do is find an acceptable sugar allowance.
8% of 2000 calories is 160 grams of sugar a day.
I am sorry but that is way too high for what I am trying to achieve. I am trying to get over my sugar addiction and that is still a LOT of sugar.
There are studies that say 82 grams of sugar is the most you should have. That is based on a 1200 calorie diet.
That is still quite a lot.
I need to think about this. I am thinking closer to 40 or 50 grams. Maybe even less if I want to get the refined sugar out of my diet.
I am talking refined sugar here. Not sugars from fruits or honey which are naturally occurring form of sugar.
I need to think about this more. Would love to hear what you all think.
Any of you who follow me on Twitter may already know this amazing news...
I am allowed to start re-introducing cycling to my life!!!!!!!!!
I am so excited!
I am allowed to do up to 30 minutes a day slow pedalling on low tension. I can either use an exercise bike, a trainer (yes that was the photo from the other day for those who were unsure), or actually going out on the bike! As long as I take it easy and use low tension/gears.
I am going to start on the exercise bike at the gym tonight.
I am so excited - I can't wait to get myself over there and ride. It is going to be SO hard to take it easy, but I will do what I have to do to get there.
I am actually going to take a magazine to read. I hate seing people reading on exercsie equipment as I feel it distracts you from pushing yourself. But since I am not allwed to push myself I figure it will be perfect!
I will report in and let you all know how it goes.
This is not "head hungry". This is honest to God, stomach growling, and feeling like it is going to start eating itself from within hungry.
No matter how much I eat, a few hours later I am hungry.
And it is not like I am exercsing at the moment to build up the hunger.
I need help...
I am going to the doctors later this week to get some weight loss drugs.
I am hoping for Duromine as it is the only one I have had that helps. I only want it for a month or so. Just to get things kick started and under control again. But last time I asked for it my Doc said no. She put me on Reductil (which has now been removed from availability in Australia). The only other one is Xenical which I will NOT use.
Am working on my Achilles recovery and have not had a huge amount to report. It is going really really well and I am hoping to be able to start introducing exercise next week. I need to get my Rehab plan checked off by my Physio then I can get into it.
I will report in when that is happening.
My living situation is also about to change and I will no longer have to share a kitchen. Cooking will begin again in earnest and I will share lots of yummy recipes.
My Physio has given me a 3 day trial out of the boot. If I go okay then I can stay out of it. If it gets worse he wants me to get anti-infammatory injections into the Achilles area (which I do not want).
So I am being super careful, taking my Voltaren, using my stick, and being as positive as possible that this is the final stage of the treatment!
Thank you so much to everyone for your kindness on Friday.
I still don't know what was wrong, but I needed that cry. It went for about 3 hours on and off.
I am still feeling a lot of frustration at my leg, but I am trying to put a positive spin on things. I am also hoping I can come out of the boot tonight which is going to make a massive difference. I will still be on restrictions but won't be lugging around the heavy leg.
Weigh in today and I lost 1.3kgs. I did not "diet" as such this week, but made better choices. I didn't have dessert just becuase it was there. If I was full, I stopped eating. I am listening to my body.
If I can continue to lose 500g - 1 kg each weel doing this, I will stick with it. Once that stops I will go to a more formal dieting structure. I just don't feel ready to face that right now.
Thank you again for your support. You are all wonderful.
I don't know what it is but I am not going to analyse it. I am going to accept it and go with it.
Saturday morning I had to duck into the local IGA to get bread. I was hungry. Normally I would grab chips and/or chocolate. I stopped. I looked at them. I realised my body did not need them. I went home and made lunch.
Saturday night I had dinner with friends. Where we went I usually end the night with ice cream. It was discussed. I listened to belly. It was full. I said no.
Sunday morning. Went into convenience store specifically to get a bag of chips as I was hungry and I knew I would be having a late lunch. I walked straight past the chips and got a take home pack of cheese and crackers (5 crackers and 8 small squares of cheese). I ate it and was full. I lasted until the late lunch.
Today, I sent SVP to the shop to get eggs and cheese. I did not beg for chocolate like I normally would. I didn't even think about it.
I am feeling calm. I am not covering my bald head in embarrassment (unless it is sunny out as I do not want to burn it). I am wearing it with my head held high.
I am Shrinking Vego.
I am proud.
I approve of me.
I have a public holiday today so did not get up early enough to weigh in. I will weigh in tomorrow and will record my weight with pride.
Last night I went and saw a Naturopath. I haven't been "right" for a long time. I have bad sleep, I am tired all the time, my food cravings are out of control.
I went to a doctor last year who did bloods and they were all fine. So away I went.
The Naturopath was awesome. I won't bore you with the details but we are working on getting me "right" again. As part of that I have to take a range of herbs and supplements for a couple of weeks.
This morning I was so concerned about what I had to take, I forgot to jump on the scales. I will do it tomorrow.
The first thing we are working on is the digestive issues and the fatigue. She gave me a herbal sleep tonic and I have to say, I slept a lot deeper last night than normal. I actually felt fairly well refreshed when I woke up. I am also taking some things for energy and to calm down the gut.
I see her again in 2 weeks when we will start a detox. I am looking forward to that as I have wanted to do one for quite a while.
Hopefully as I get less tired and my tummy issues settle down (and hopefully the cravings stop) then I will be able to manage the food situation better than I have been.
It is taking me some time to settle back in to be home. I was only gone for 4 days but it was so relaxing and I was so cut off that it feels like a lot longer.
I struggled last week with my healthy food habit challenge. Mainly because we could not get fresh fruit (or veg) where we went away. And we tried... It was really bizarre. So I am doing week 1 again.
In other news I am off to a new Physio tonight. My old one seemed to be pretty pathetic so I am getting a second opinion. I can feel a lump growing on the back of the Achilles and that is not good.... That added to the fact that it is constantly swollen leads me to believe he is not doing all he could be.
Weigh in this morning was slightly down. I have not been monitoring my food intake at all. Time to refocus.
The Black Dog is still hovering around the fringes as well. I am trying to do what I can to keep him at bay but it is hard...
So sorry for the extended absence. SVP and I went away for a long weekend. I was planning on taking the laptop which is why I did not mention it. But at the last minute I decided to have a technology-free weekend.
I had an amazingly relaxing weekend and spent a lot of time with my own thoughts.
Decisions have been made, others have been un-made. Some decisions are that little bit closer. Things are good.
Didn't do so well with my healthy food habit change this week, but tomorrow starts a new week. And I am relaxed and ready to make some changes...
Firstly, sorry for the extended absence. After Friday nights reality check I realised I had some thinking to do.
Unfortunately the weekend was SO busy no thinking got thought…
Well, at least not consciously. But thoughts are always swirling I guess.
I came to a realisation this morning. I am overwhelming myself with the need to get this perfect. Eat this many points, that many calories. Do this much exercise at that intensity. It is too much for my small (and now blonde) brain to cope with.
So it comes down to this.
What do I want?
I want a healthy mind and body.
Do I care about skinny? No, not really. But being truly healthy will entail being smaller than I am now.
So for now, there is no more point counting. No more calorie counting. No more striving for a perfection I am not capable of reaching.
I am breaking this down.
Each week I will remove one bad food habit, and add one good food habit.
This week I will start eating a piece of fruit every day.
And I will stop eating potato chips.
I have gotten into the habit of eating 3-4 large bags of potato chips a week (Smiths Cheese & Onion are my favourite). But the amount of calories in those things is ridiculous. Plus the fact that I always get the ploops afterwards.
Every Monday I will share another + and – that will be coming into my food life. I will be developing good habits one at a time while removing bad habits at the same pace.
If anyone has any suggestions of good food habits I can look at bringing into my daily life, I would love to hear them.
You know sometimes you see a really fat person sitting or standing somewhere and you feel a sense of pity for them? You glance then look away, not wanting to stare, and feeling sorry that they let themselves get to such a state.
Today on the train on the way home I was looking around in a bit of a daze, and out the corner of my eye I caught sight of one of those people. It was a lady sitting on the next row of seats over.
I glanced away but looked back when I realised she had been looking in my direction.
Imagine my horror when I realised she was looking at me because it was my reflection!
I looked again.
Yep, that is definitely me I was feeling pity for.
How the fuck did I get here again? I don't want people's pity. I am a strong independent woman. How the fuck did I become this pathetic creature taking up one and a half seats on the train????
Because I was here before 3 years ago.
And I have let myself get back there.
I spent the rest of the ride home trying my hardest not to cry my eyes out.