Monday, January 10, 2011

Who Am I

I have had weight loss blogs before. I have had general blogs before. But I have never had truly honest blogs before.

How am I going to do this?


I am going to remain anonymous. No names. No photos of my face. No personal information. Just raw honesty.

So the question remains...

Who Am I?

I am an overweight 30-something who lives in Australia. I have dieted my whole life and I just keep getting fatter.  Three years ago I decided to take my life back and start dieting and exercising. I weighed in at 162.5 kilos.

I worked my butt off for 10 months and became obsessed.  The result? A 45 kilo weight loss, a fitter body, and no life. I could not maintain it. I relaxed my attitude somewhat but life got in my way. 

Family illnesses, deaths, job losses, house losses, financial strife, mental illness (mine and family members)... Everything got on top of me.  So here I am, just over 2 years later, and I have gained back 30 of those kilos.

30 kilos...  Are you freaking kidding me????  In just 2 years!!!!

Last week I decided that had to change.  I can NOT go back to being that person.  But I also can't be obsessed again. 

I need somewhere separate from my everyday blog to record this stuff.  Somewhere that no-one knows who I am so all the honest stuff that I normally keep bottled up can come on out.  I don't even care if no-one reads it. I just want to have a place where I can put it all.

So to start with the honesty here we go - first weigh in of 2011 saw me sitting on 147.2kilos.

Second weigh in (today) saw me sitting at 146.2 kilos.

A 1 kilo loss which I SHOULD be happy with. But considering I did exercised every day - including a 40km bike ride - it should have been more.

Why wasn't it?

Because I ate shit. A lot of shit.  Too much shit. So I only lost 1 kilo.

I had a big chat with my exercise buddy and I know where I went wrong. So I am taking the bull by the horns and starting fresh today.

Weigh in is Mondays and Thursdays.

I'll be here - with it all hanging out....

1 comment:

Megan said...

I'm really looking forward to watching this blog as it unfolds. You have already given me some food for thought (pardon the pun). I am thinking about how much I crib on the truth, or at least edit what I decide to write down, on my own blog. I always make a point of writing down what I've been doing right, when I've been for a run or a ride or eaten well. But I gloss over the bad points, the binges, the bad choices. The whole point of starting my blog (along with networking with like minded individuals) was to help me work through my issues with food, and try to detach my emotion from my food intake. If I never acknowledge it in the blog, how is this helping me to deal with my demons?

Thanks for the insightful beginnings to your blog, I'll be following along your journey :)