No More Excuses

I know a lot of people hate The Biggest Loser, but I find it really motivating. The year that I lost heaps of weight (2008) I was right there with them.  In 2009, I started losing weight again during TBL. In 2010 TBL stopped me from gaining weight.

In 2011 it is going to help me lose again.

I have been getting really frustrated with the restrictions placed on me by being injured. This injury is taking months to heal. I have been off of it since September 2010.

Tomorrow night I am going to go to the gym to find things that don't hurt it. I need to be able to smash my exercise again. I can't run so I need to find alternatives.

If I can't find anything, I'll go back later in the week and try again.

As for the food...

Hmmm....

I'm struggling, aren't I. 

I need to work on that. And I will. But I need to get the exercise thing working. Coz that is what is driving me nuts...

Hunger...

As I mentioned earlier, I am having a hungry day. 

By the time I had finished dinner I had used all bar 1 of my WW points. Unfortunately my house is currently not well stocked for low cal snacks. 

To be honest, I am not here a lot. So I haven't bothered stocking it. But tonight has taught me I need to.

If you don't know how WW Pro Points works you get a daily allowance, you can accrue a weekly activity allowance, plus you get a weekly allowance, or spare points if you will, to be used as needed, either for a big meal out, or to take up the slack on hungry days.

I haven't given any real thought to how I am going to use these 'spare' points. But today I used some. 10 of them in fact. I only get 49 for the week and the week started today.  But that is what they are there for.

I am glad I was able to use them without guilt, but I do need to supply the house with fruit and better snacks than the PB sanger I had tonight. 

I did make sure it was real hunger before I ate, but I made the decision to eat and I feel better now. 

I am watching TBL while I type this. Very emotional tonight. Lots of things hitting home. I am them in so many ways... This will be on TV for 3 months. I want to be under 130kgs by the time it finishes. I know I can do this. 

I will do this...

Morning going well

Last night found me on the WW web site looking up how many points are in McDonalds Hash Browns... WTF!?!?!?!

Woke up this morning and realised how completely stupid and self destructive that is. I am already feeling quite sick from all the crap I have been eating and this horrid cold I seem to be getting, and I was going to feed this body carbs and fat for breakfast?!?!?!?

The Biggest Loser Australia started last night. Boy I identified with a lot of those contestants. I sure wish I didn't though. I wish I identified with the trainer who said "I normally treat my body like a temple, this week I have treated it like a garbage dump" (for those of you not in Oz, the trainers had to live a week with their families and eat what they ate).

While I didn't identify with that comment it struck a nerve. 

I do that - I treat my body like a garbage dump. I find the crappiest, most nutritionally useless foods around, and shove them into my body.

Then I wonder which I feel like shot so often.

I fell like shit coz I treat my body like shit.

Time to treat it like a temple.

Geez I wish my ankle was better. I want to get out there and smash my body. But I can't. Not yet.

For today I will focus on eating well. Only feed myself nutritionally sound foods. Follow the WW points. 

Oh, and I weighed in at 146kgs. :(