The Boot Is Gone!!!!!

At least for a few days!

I am so excited. :)

My Physio has given me a 3 day trial out of the boot. If I go okay then I can stay out of it. If it gets worse he wants me to get anti-infammatory injections into the Achilles area (which I do not want).

So I am being super careful, taking my Voltaren, using my stick, and being as positive as possible that this is the final stage of the treatment!

Send me any healing vibes you have spare. :)

Caffeine

I have decided to go Caffeine-free.

I did this last year for about 5 months but it slowly crept back in. Now it is time to get rid of it for good.

I am prepared for the anxiety this time though. I know it will come. I know what it is. And I have tools to handle it.

Wish me luck!

New Plan

So I spent this week watching my food choices and portion sizes.

I did well except for breakfast - McDonalds Hash Browns and Muffins with cheese and egg get me every day....

A few highlights

 - Went out for dinner and gave 1/3 of my main (which was only entree size) to SVP

 - Gave half my dessert to SVP

 - Eating chocolate, after a few rows asked SVP to take the rest away and if I ask for it to tell me he has finished it

 - No seconds of pasta

How did it show on the scales????

I gained 1.2kgs....

*sigh*

So I need another new plan.

Counting calories with a twist.

I have taken my calorie allowance as set by several well known calorie counting websites

Taken 100 calories off for the fact that I am so sedentary right now

Taken another 200 calories off for vegetables (I am not counting veggies, they are free but I need to allow for them)

Multiplied it by 7 for the week

Thrown another 800 "treat" calories in

And given myself a weekly total of 12700.

This allows for non-hungry days and hungry days, as well as allowing for going out (I have about 6 birthdays to go to this month).

I will give it 2 weeks then re-assess.

Choices

I am starting make better ongoing food choices.

This morning I REALLY wanted chocolate. I wanted a bag of Malteasers (the big bags). Instead I got a small Malteaser Bunny.

My boss offered to buy Pizza for lunch. I said no thank you. I ate my cheese and crackers with a rice snack.

I am not setting records here, but I am making better choices.

Thank You

Thank you so much to everyone for your kindness on Friday.

I still don't know what was wrong, but I needed that cry. It went for about 3 hours on and off.

I am still feeling a lot of frustration at my leg, but I am trying to put a positive spin on things. I am also hoping I can come out of the boot tonight which is going to make a massive difference. I will still be on restrictions but won't be lugging around the heavy leg.

Weigh in today and I lost 1.3kgs. I did not "diet" as such this week, but made better choices. I didn't have dessert just becuase it was there. If I was full, I stopped eating. I am listening to my body.

If I can continue to lose 500g - 1 kg each weel doing this, I will stick with it. Once that stops I will go to a more formal dieting structure. I just don't feel ready to face that right now.

Thank you again for your support. You are all wonderful.

Crying

I have been crying my eyes out most of the afternoon and I do not know why...

I am not pre-menstrual. I am just upset, angry and frustrated at nothing in particular.

My leg is aching, but not hurting to the point of tears. I am at work alone so can't leave. But I just want to curl up and cry.

Normally when I feel like this I go for a long walk or ride.

But I can't.

And that makes it worse...

Struggling

Not being able to exercise and do anything active is doing my head in....

That is all...